Unleash the Beast

Life is not fair... and even though, we may think that tragedy will never touch us personally, inevitably,  it will.  

For me, tragedy and the unfairness of life struck me on July 22, 2008 when the love of my life passed away after a heroic battle with cancer.  Long ago, I wrote about a friend being sick and that I could not wait till that friend kicked the bug and won...  At the time, I did not want to make to specific since I knew the the people that needed to know, knew and the randoms who stumble on this site, did not need to...  Sadly, unfairly, and tragically, we lost that battle.  A person who loved me unconditionally (which if you read this mother fucker seems to be near impossible) and who I just wanted to hold at the end of each day is now gone...

SMK-- you are my heart, my soul, my existence and I will make you proud.. 

and I am left to to figure out what happens next... 

And so here is what happens next... this space... this time... these words become my attack on the world.. life and everything that I endure on a daily basis... the struggle all of us face is to live life as best we can.. because I refuse to forget her and not live my life as best as I can... 

So consider this notice as once again, I begin again...